i put hope on the ceiling fan and
turned it on and watched
it fling off
and splatter on the walls; my mother
will be pissed, but I want
her to know that the blue and the black
now coating her plaster
is how I feel, most of the time.
for context, mother, let
me say that hope is a soggy bitch sitting
with her weird friends
cutting up my life like yarn.
hey, nameless boy
i know you are far and away—
you are living la vida gothic, kissing
your painted-up girlfriend against
mirrors, letting her fingers
dig into the glass
and the record bins; I didn’t know
people could really look
like a Blink-182 song—
I guess I’m glad
to be proved wrong
on something;
I guess I’m okay now
and definitely not
jealous.
(hey, I hope your girlfriend
gets coronavirus
and dies)
the last pavilion 